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kateracka @ 2009-01-03T15:35:00

2009-01-03T20:36:23Z

For the record, I don't use this anymore. Interested in stalking me? I've got another blog. So, good luck.

kateracka @ 2006-06-07T12:56:00

2006-06-07T16:56:16Z

One interview down. Another one to go.

Jesus...

kateracka @ 2006-06-06T11:03:00

2006-06-06T15:08:50Z

Well, I added less "emo" to my cereal this morning, so I'm in a far better mood. This may be in accordance with the fact that I am on SUMMER BREAK and I have no job obligations, so I can sit on my arse outside alllll daaaay loooong and no one gives a damn. No job obligations brings upon a pro and con list...
PROS:
- I don't have to work. I can be lazy.
- No school AND no work. It's always one or the other.
- Lazy. Lazy lazy.

Ok so my pro's list was pretty much the same... but then there's the con list:
CONS:
- No money.

There ya have it, folks! So I'm a lazy bum with no money.

It's ok. Tomorrow I've got (count 'em) TWO job interviews up in B'more. One's at a printmaking company, one of the largest in B'more and located in the love-ly Hampden; the other is for an assistant's job with a big freelancer. Woot. He does corporate work and while that's not really on my career agenda, I can still learn a lot from his shoots.

'Til then, my ass is perched outside, cutting up tee-shirts and attempting once again to make that skirt, minus the help of an aunt who has quite the hand for sewing...

RACHELGIVEMEPICTURES.

E-gad, it's been ages...

2006-06-05T23:21:13Z

... I suppose the real reason I haven't written in a long time might be due to an anonymous poster from a few months ago that made my stomach queasy with her little attacks. I know, I really shouldn't still be thinking about that since she was a petty little beyotch, but I still can't help it.

I'd like to think I've come far in this past year, far from the name-calling and such that I used to do.

It's been one full academic year and I can't help but feel like a loser. This year has been nothing but a waste and a mess. I always feel like I have to watch my back - even writing this! Heaven forbid that I get called out on writing the wrong thing or thinking the wrong thoughts. I guess that's life and you just have to deal. I have yet to learn to proerly deal.

So yeah... I'm taking a semester off from school in order to work on myself and my portfolio. Good idea? We'll see. Will I got back? Hopefully. I'll be moving back to my apartment with Miss Blake and working up there. This, my friends, I am very excited about.

But I'm lacking majorly in the financial responsibility and maturity department, it seems. I'd like to think I've grown, but I always seem to be coming full circle to the same goddamn problems.

I'm really good at not dealing with issues and tuning it out, but what does that leave me with? A mess, that's what it leaves me with. If not dealing is my answer, I suck. And I make things worse. It's not even a comfort situation... ehh, maybe it is. Damn comfort stage. That's in a lot of my life, just settling and letting a lot of junk consume me.

Uggh.

So yeah here I am complaining on my livejournal! I'd like to think I'm going to keep up with it but chances are slim.

I need to clean.

kateracka @ 2005-08-14T22:41:00

2005-08-15T02:52:41Z

Whoa. Loads of stuff a-happenin' soon.

*I'm Leaving: Yes. I'm heading off to Towson in, oh, T minus 7 days? And tomorrow, Katie & The Crew will be venturing off to her new apartment to move stuff in. This includes Brian the Mighty, William the Giant, and Mom the... Mother? It will be quite interesting indeed. And lord! I have so much stuff! I don't even know where to begin as far as personal stuff (clothes, shoes... toys?) - do I bring pictures? CDs? Will I even need my fab stereo system, seeing as I'll have most of my music via computer? And I need to make sure - this is a new phase for me. No junk. No more messy young Katie.
I need to grow up and clean up, yo.
Oh - and my apartmentmates are fantastic! I've already spoken with two of them - one gal, Liz, still remains anonymous. Oh well. It's only a matter of time.
*My Sister's New Beau: A Happy Rachel makes a Happy Katie. I feel very strongly in this matter, as she and I have suffered our share of romance crap. I can't even threaten this new guy (Dan) to make sure he keeps her happy, because I just know these things. I have intuition. Sister-sense. And well-paid private investigators.

Ok, so maybe not LOADS of new things. Maybe just two major new things. I think that's a-plenty. Maybe I'll post in another four months.

How can you not love it?

I'm addicted.

2005-07-07T05:44:52Z

No, seriously. I'm addicted.

I'm tired of using Photoshop and only knowing the basics, you know, the "tricks" and the simple stuff. So, I've become obsessed with the details of Photoshop, and have decided that I will attempt to become a master - all within ONE night.

I'm tired.

Ok, but really - I took the photos that I had used as a "warm-up" for these girls' senior portraits that I'll be doing later this summer and I worked on them. Any sort of feedback is welcome and encouraged and... well, just please say something? Anything?

http://www.pbase.com/ktdphoto/twins

As far as the compositions go, the creativity was lacking. This was mainly so they'd get used to me and the camera.

Enjoy.

For an anonymous reader...

2005-06-22T02:10:05Z

... to you and all others I wrote about, I apologize.

I had no intention of hurting anyone, I guess I was just venting and acting childish about this. I'm quite over it - it still stings and I guess I am acting overly dramatic about the situation. But this is my live journal - if I feel like acting childish and ridiculous, I should be able to. Is that healthy for me? Probably not. Should I grow up? Yes. No one who reads my journal - with the acception of whoever you are - knows who the two people are that I talked about, which is exactly why it didn't bother me to write. I know I need to learn how to deal with it better, and I have. Katie W. is a really great person and I used to really look up to her. People just go through crappy times and go into dark places like I did. They say things they don't mean. So, forgive me for that. Take my apology. You may have noticed I deleted the past two entries, where I wrote said things - but what I think you failed to notice, Anonymous, was the date on the entries. They were both from Februrary, and actually the first one was right after I found out. So, yeah, I was still hurt.

I'm not done, though.

You need to learn to spell, darling. Whoever you are. Want to fight a "fight" with me? Don't do it as an anonymous poster, you apparently know who I am and I'm sure you have my contact info. If not, look for me on AIM under the same name, darling, or give me a call and I'll gladly give you the low-down, because unless you were Zack and dating me, you have no right to say, "Like...maybe...the fact that you were totally psycho while dating Zach, which is the number one reason why he dumped you! " - really. You know this? You were there? He told you everything? Every little detail of every single day we were together? Damn. That's a lot of listening on your part.

You sound like a real charmer yourself, by the way.

"So get a life and stop worrying about some boy that you dated for a few meaningless months. " A few meaningless months - not meaningless to me, obviously. But apparently you're, like, what, 12? 13? And you said I was dramatic? Look at this little "verbal attack" of yours. Kinda irritating, and yes, enough to make me write a response, but only for you to just back off. I don't need this and I'd like to think you're mature enough to move on and not write stuff like this to anyone else. You're cruel as hell! Honestly, I am moving past this but it's actually not easy for me and I sure as hell didn't need to read your little anonymous comment - can we get back to the anonymous part? You didn't even have the balls to sign your name. Nice.

I'd like to know who you are. I'd like to talk.

And in case you need a refresher of what you wrote:

Subject: Get a life!
Ok Kateracka....first of all this isn't high school anymore so stop acting like you are in 10th grade!!! I have to say that you are acting totally childish about this whole thing. I believe you failed to mention parts of your story in your little online journal. Like...maybe...the fact that you were totally psycho while dating Zach, which is the number one reason why he dumped you! Number 2...Katie W. was more of a person for you to call while you were bored or need someone to cry to because everyone else was sick of listening! I would certainly not say that you ever treated her as a friend...maybe aquaintance is more like it...So I guess what you should really do is move on and realize that Katie W is a much better person for telling you about this. It was definitly not her responsability to tell you or your business to know. So get a life and stop worrying about some boy that you dated for a few meaningless months.

OH and maybe your constant dramatic behavior and psychoness should be toned down a little when you get another boyfriend.

Yeah... 'cause I'm so dramatic and all. Oh, and darling? It's "definitely" and "responsibility" and "psychoness" isn't a word. And Katie was a person for me to call when I was bored or needed someone to cry to? I didn't treat her like a friend? I hardly think that's how it was.

Can't wait to hear from you, babes.